So many of us are seeking happiness and joy through the fulfillment of our desires. Unfortunately those that are are seriously on The Journey Into Self, quickly uncover the” truth of contradiction”. To find happiness, we must first be happy!. No outside circumstance, no matter how much we desire it, will bring happiness and joy to us. Our joy and happiness will create the conditions we seem to think will be responsible for them.
It is enlightening yet labor intensive when you come to the realization that conditions do not create happiness, HAPPINESS is a choice, and when achieved, all conditions thrive through it.
The vast majority of us are attempting to create the perfect conditions, ( at the expense of our happiness) to bring us happiness. I call it the “Bass- Ackward” syndrome!
The endeavor to choose happiness as a way of life in the face of lack, need, grief, and pain, is the most difficult obstacle to navigate along the Journey of Self Discovery. WE must be able to separate ourselves from our desires, focus only upon the journey and not the destination, release all attachment to outcome and live for the very sake of living. Then, and only then, we will see the manifestation of our desires.
The dichotomy of life is “You have to release it to receive it, give it away to keep keep it, and not care about it to create it.
I am on that roller coaster ride daily. Here in “The Garden of Knowing” it is a blessing and a curse to have seen behind the curtain. My search for self has me at times ambiguous about my resolve. I vacillate almost daily between steadfast determination, and indifference, releasing and holding on, being grateful and damning the cosmos, dwelling on only positive outcomes, and lamenting the lack there of.
Yes, life IS a contradiction. To find true happiness, you first must BE happy. The conditions we tirelessly attempt to manipulate, hoping they will open the door to our much sought after dose of peace, tend to align with no effort AFTER we have chosen peace regardless of situation.
This is a monumental TRUTH of which we have have uncovered, and a quantum leap forward in the Journey Into Self, but bittersweet it is. Much easier said than done, at times,almost a curse to have uncovered.
Be careful what you pray for,,,,,,you just might get it!
The Journey IS the Destination!